I like it when people ask me where do i work at and i will say " In a law firm". Occasionally, they would doubt me. I would be like, " dont believe right ? Get yourself in trouble and then hire my lawyer and you'll see me right at the front door." HAHAHA. I doubt anyone from my school would be working in a law firm right ?! I told you a few months ago i wouldnt work in some shitty jobs like waitressing and humiliate myself when i see people i know. But its also shitty working in an enviroment where no one is in my age group. Well, luckily got Shiyin. She's 19 and i constantly feel very inferior when i'm with her. YOU KNOW WHY ?! CAUSE THAT MOTHERFUCKER GOT STRAIGHT A's IN HER RECENT A LEVEL RESULT. CB, SHE GOT ACCEPTED IN KINGS ALSO. goddamnit. Anihoo , work ends this months before i go on a break before school starts.

The idea of this scares me. Actually i'm just afraid of making new friends. K FAKE. I just hate the process of knowing someone new and figuring them out all over again. Therefore, i'm thankful that Luqman is in the same school with me. But I seriously wonder what the hell is wrong with us, we have been in the same school for the past ten years and i'm about to see him for another three years. Hahah , someone got to save me. Or he will will start being over protective again. And he will say " you better eat ah", " Must make friends with the right people ah! ". DIE DIE DIE. Most of all the enrollment should really go suck cock. Its such a tormenting and torturing process that i dragged and finally have to take leave on thursday and friday to settle all the enrollment shit. FML. Can i hire someone to settle this for me ?

okayisurvivedtwoweeksofYTFandrunningandskippingandworking.Butnowifeellikedyingalready.kbye.

Aim : Lose 1 to 1.5kg by this week.

No point saying 'no food intake'. Who am i kidding , I LOVE FOOD. So heres the sucky part , Yong Tau Foo the whole week . Meh. More vegetable , oh I LOVE VEGETABLE. I'm serious, give me a bowl i'll finish in a few seconds for you. Oh and no more tea in the morning or the afternoon in the office. More cold water, speeds up the metabolism. Walk fast to and fro the bank, thats the only exercise you can get during office hours. Should i start eating bananananana for breakfast every single day ? Hmmm , where to get banana early in the morning. 7-11? NO MORE LOMAIKAI for breakfast, i can cry. Just bananas in the morning , YTF in the afternoon and air in the night.

Get your butt home and do sit ups, that tummy is not attractive with your high waist office skirt. Unless I want to have tummy like Mdm Prema , i should start doing both situps and crunches. Legs looking like the pole at THE CONCOURSE. so do throw some cycling and hanging if you do not want to run. Then SLEEP with legs tied to the other end of the bed and pray it makes my legs longer.

The end, please follow up by the end of the week if you are not dying/exhausted/tired of living.

Is it me or is it the time is passing by so slowly todayyyyy.

its like tickkkkkkkkkkkkkk tockkkkkkkkkk tickkkkkkkkkkk tockkkkkkkk .

GOD DAMN IT.

My OPI finally arrive and lemme tell you i spent near 200 bucks on it. fml.

and two of the bottles broke, oh yeaa .

okay will post the photos i take at sk , provided i'm in the mood.

Well i think for those avid readers, you'll probably hate me so much or find my guts unbelievable. Either way, i'm liking the attention. So do continue reading (Y)

Lets talk about 2010 and how it went for me.

2010 started out just fine, and i find it amazing how time went by so fast. Well we got to admit it , this year was a year i was god fucking determined. Studying hours were longer than it could ever be. Not to mention the gallons of caffeine i slurped. I dont actually believe I took O's and results is coming out in 10 Jan ? School would have been a drag if it was not for theva, my all time deskbuddy. THE DESKBUDDY. He's indian , you got a problem with that?

This whole year, i wasnt involve in any conflict with my classmate. Like i did last year , with cheryl. HA. good times. Well lets not count Janice in. She's a cow and i'll still make her life miserable if i see her. THATS FOR NOT LETTING ME STAND.

Love my fives (insert hearts). Pignic and potluck during recess and well national day and everything together. Never fail to put up with my attitude and been there when i really needed them. So here's to you , Amalina fishball, Hani nyeep nyeep, ZIMAHHHHH !!! , Valerie roasted piggie and my wushie/netbie/baby girl -samantha. I love everyone of you so dearly, lets not forget each other.

Well Shaz came in pretty much to the end of the year, and its pretty awesome to have her around. Ranting about how life is ALWAYS UNFAIR almost all the time i see her. I think she finds me to be pretty much of a joke sometimes. And ever since i've been half insane with the someone i like, not many people are taking me as seriously as they did before. Well , she was one who took me seriously and not to forget syafiq. Well thanks for not cutting off my options.

I know SOME of you are about to kill yourself wanting to know who i like. Like i dont know what you've been discussing behind my back. WHY DO YOU NEED TO KNOW ABOUT ME SO MUCH ? oh well . A year ago, i got a huge crush on someone i thought was unreachable and was a total stranger to me. Who was i kidding, he didnt even know i exist. Well not untill 2009 Hari Raya celebration at cck. I think. When i saw him for the very first time, i was so paranoid about how embarrassing it would be if my lashes were to fall from staring at him. I think my friends were irritated by me that night. We became friends after that and i did like him more for a period of time until i thought it wasnt appropriate. And exactly a year after that- September, i'm liking him again. No, liking isnt even a word for it, probably mad insane about him would be half of what i'm making you understand. His different, for instant his a malay, but most of all made me think my ex that i used to be crazy about was nothing compared to him. He's beyond special.

I like Irfan Asli , and the thought of him seeing this does not disturb me. Lets be frank, he wont see this.

So happy new year to all , i'll still be the bitch you all know and i want to see the television now. My life is not boring , you just have to see it in a certain angle. If you think my life was boring, you wouldnt have come back every now and then to see if i've updated, would you? kbai.

But now i'm feeling fucking insecure with both my best friend is not a call away.

Many of you would have already known , Man is away - thousand and thousand kilometres away from me while dinie , work occupies most of his time.

With the confused feelings i am feeling , i pretty much declare my life is at its lowest now.

Work is my refuge , and today i realised i should trust no one. I was given no choice.

I want to sleep and wake being stronger than ever.

ok , fuck it. I AM NOT WEAK.

I cut my own hair btw and i lost motivation to type further.